Make it real. Make it beautiful.

I just can't be happy where I am. 

I'm alone, so I want to be with people. 

I'm with people, and I just want to be alone. 

Had I done the best I could with my life, I think everything would be different. 

Looking at the sky wouldn't be so depressing. 

Seeing a beautiful girl wouldn't be so foreboding. 

I want to write a novel. 

Finish a song.

Film a movie.

Something.

Anything.

Anything to make it so that, even though I ruined everything I wanted, I can still do something.

I can still make something new. 

Make a little piece of reality that makes everything just a little better. 

Beauty is anything. Beauty is creation.

I want to make beauty.

Not just stare at it, longing for just a touch.

I want this.